Alice HowarthSat, 27 March 2021, 9:46 am
Gwyneth Paltrow has spoken candidly about her experience with fame. Speaking on the Anna Faris is Unqualified podcast, hosted by the Scary Movie actress, Paltrow admitted that she’s struggled with never feeling anonymous.
“The surreal part is having been famous basically my whole adult life,” the 48-year-old said, “so I don’t know what it means to be a grownup without all of the scrutiny and all of the wonderful things and terrible things that come with being a famous person.”
Speaking about the height of her acting career, when she won an Oscar in her twenties for her role in Shakespeare in Love, Gwyneth reflected: “It was the weirdest, most surreal time, and, you know, you’re also kind of embarrassed that you’re nominated for an Oscar. You have imposter syndrome, and you think, ‘I can’t even believe this is happening. I’m not even that good. Does everybody hate me?’
“In L.A., everybody was so supportive. I remember winning and the tide sort of turned, and there was this feeling of when you have that much attention on you and that much energy, it was really, really overwhelming.
“I remember I was staying with my parents at their house in Santa Monica, and I just kind of, like, hid for three weeks afterwards. It was so intense, and I felt so—lonely is the right word. It was really strange.”
Paltrow has spoken in numerous interviews about being burned out by acting and exacerbated by “intense public scrutiny” so it’s little wonder that over the years she’s largely stepped away from screen work.
In December, the mum-of-two told US radio station told Sirius XM that “my life changed course” after finding success in Hollywood.
“I think that when you hit the bullseye when you’re 26 years old and you’re a metrics-driven person who frankly doesn’t love acting that much as it turns out… It wasn’t like I felt like this isn’t worth doing, I felt like, well now who am I supposed to be? What am I driving towards?
“This wasn’t conscious at the time. And part of the shine of acting wore off [from] being in such intense public scrutiny, being a kid who’s living every break-up on every headline, being criticised for everything you do, say and wear.
“And also, it’s so transitory, you’re always all over [the world]. It’s hard to plant roots. I’m such a homebody. You know me, I like to be with my old friends and cook and squeeze my kids. I don’t want to be alone in a hotel room in Budapest for six weeks. It’s just not who I am.”